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Feelings  and Emoting

Of late, as I've admitted before, I have been remiss in chronicling the daily events and situations that I've encountered through my wanderings and travels- due to the fact that I have been thoroughly enjoying myself with my new lady love. Time flies when you're having fun:)

The past year has been, to the most part, a beautiful and enchanting traipsing trip into the everlasting field of happiness with cherished memories and wondrous moments all thanks to this new found LOVE.

We could, would, and did create Poetry in motion. Life was that beautiful,yes..

Poetry in life is all about using imagery to evoke emotion, and that works just as well in prose. 

In my book,metaphors, simile, and colorful language can be an effective way to convey emotions without ever using a specific emotion word.

And with new technological wonders available to us these days, through Whatsapp, Wechat and Twitter, those dang cute little emoticons also have an everlasting  ability to showcase for display, the many moods we elicit throughout the day. 

With Emoticons, which millions these days use in their digital conversational sets even those not suited to the written word are able to convey their innermost feelings without much hand wringing or verb selecting..

Emotions, I believe, are critical to making a person feel real. 

Either really loved or conversely, really used and abused. Being in love and the process of loving someone can and would heighten our emotions.

Heightened emotions can heighten the senses, so perceptions might be stronger.

All the above might eventually realize itself into a fear. 
Fear of being used and abused.

Fear of Losing. 

Fear of not being foremost in the minds of our loved ones in so much as we feel we feel for them. Our fears can induce a hyper-awareness, which in the case of LOVE, is magnified because love can make things feel more sensual than we normally feel..(It was definitely so for me)...I am aware that even scents trigger memories that evoke the emotion we want to show but are afraid to do so.

Problems arose though, in my beautiful relationship because I did not feel her fear?

Was I guilty of being careless, taking things for granted?

Probably not, because even she’s not feeling it. 

She is however equating those pangs of doubt, need & desire as emotions which she equated with neglect of her dignity, pride and well being.

Emotions trigger physical reactions, and these are clues I know can be used to determine how a person feels about themselves.. As in most examples projecting or equating one's personal happiness by the actions and /or inaction of another person.

Doubt, self loathing, recriminations of our past actions (or possibly love in the right circumstances- all give clues on the persons emotional state).

Unfortunately such emotions ,if left unattended tend to/ can trigger both a mental and a verbal fight or flight response. 

Sometimes what a person doesn’t say is more telling. An outward demeanor that contradicts the inner thoughts and feelings can show multiple layers of emotions.

I’ve evidenced with much alacrity, where even subtext can add conflict to a scene and can help increase the micro-tension between lovers.

In my case, I’d promised she who- cannot- be- named that I would introspect on my seemingly cavalier attitude towards her needs.

The lack of respect for another person’s time and efforts was apparent to her for I’d have had to ditch our private tete-a-tete’s on several occasions these past few weeks due to last minute schedule changes.

Each person will react differently to the same emotion, emotions of being needed, being admired and many others, so understanding how a person might react can guide us on how to evaluate what the other feels.

It appears that for all the good love can elicit from the minds and the ebullient irrational behavior from a person, the reality of life is such that often schedules and times can compromise the amount of limited time we allocate to each other and thus cause friction in that relationship.

Emotions can turn a ho-hum scene into one that stays in our mind long after the situation is over. I've juxtaposed many times, to meself why is that? 

The answer i've reached is that in my case I am an extroverted introvert. I feel things more externally, refusing to think about them an emotional level. Emotions just cause pain where there should be trust and care.

Others think too much and try to deny reacting to things. And, when one situation and person reacts in a certain way that provides another person with a chance to react, so emotions can build off one another–for better or worse..

That's it is a nutshell. We are all nuts in a shell that is called Earth.